Don't Say a Word

God has a way of giving you what you need when you need it. He never runs out. He is so full of everything that you and I do not have to want for anything. (Psalms 23:1) As God was developing in me for what was ahead, I discovered how I began to resemble Him from the inside out. I certainly could not take credit for anything. In and of myself, it was impossible to achieve the work that God was doing on the inside of me. As I allowed God to shape and mold me to His image, it became somewhat difficult. I murmured and complained. But, then I realized that I had to remain steadfast, focused and steady on the promises of God.

I was sitting at my desk and pondered on the promises that God revealed to me about my assignment and who I was. Just like the natural man, I began to try and figure things out. I looked at my current situation and I murmured that things are just not adding up. I even asked God, how are you going to do this thing? Why are you using me as an example? In the natural, I wanted all the answers immediately so much so that God was completely left out of the equation.

Has God only given you a portion of your assignment and is requiring you to act on faith to get to the next level? Well, woman of God, wherever God guides, He provides. If God has said it, it will come to pass. If God has spoken a promise over your life, you can guarantee that he will do just what he said. "God is not the Son of man that he should lie, nor the son of man that he should change his mind, Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?" (Number 23:19, NIV)

Earlier I mentioned, while going through the process of being conformed to God, it became difficult. It became difficult because love was one of the "hardest" fruit of the spirit for me to carry out. My flesh was in rebellion with my spirit, thereby prohibiting me from producing the kind of love described in the Word of God as "agape." Part of the conforming process with God required me to die to self and allow the God in me to show because the life "I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me Galatians 3:20" (NIV)

It is good news that God did not wait until we got right to die. "But God demonstrated his own love for us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died or us" Romans 5:8 (NIV).  It was very easy for me to say and sing songs like "I Love the Lord" and "I want to be more like Jesus." Everything that had to do with loving God, count me in. But when it came to walking in love, count me out. I complained it was difficult and threw in the white flag. I really thought I was doing something by telling the world how much I loved Jesus. But what I really was doing doing was loving God on the surface. My love for God was similar to getting up in the morning, brushing my teeth, eating breakfast, and putting on my clothes. It was a routine relationship.

Are you going through the motions with God? Has He asked you to do something and you are taking it lightly? Consider this, "when the music stops", do you live the life that you sing about in your song?

God will allow situations to come into our lives that would make us better if we allow them to. By walking through the process with Jesus, the world's definition of love was being purged from my heart, mind, actions and thoughts. According to the world's standards, adultery is the ultimate of sins. In the Old Testament, it speaks of stoning a person to death if a person was found guilty of such an act. The natural feeling of the old man is what was on the inside and therefore had to be exposed for me to see. I was apparently in denial and this situation, bought it to light. " The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" (Jeremiah 17:9, NIV)

What I discovered on this journey of conformity was that those weeds of bitterness and hatred was impeding God's love of fully developing on the inside of me. The bible says that "love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking or easily angered. It does not keep record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always preserves. Love never fails" (I Corinthians 13, KJV).

The love walk is real, especially when striving for oneness in our marriage. Jesus made the ultimate sacrifice when he died on the cross for us. Even when we messed up, he still pursues us and wants to have a love relationship. Wherever you are woman of God in your love walk with God, rather than murmur and complain, stay the course and don't say a word.